in the mirror picIN THE MIRROR: A MEMOIR

My first memoir, published in May of 2011 by WiDo Publishing. Paperback and ebook formats on Amazon and WiDo’s website:  When Ann Carbine marries Larry Best in the Salt Lake temple in 1961, she’s certain their marriage will last forever. Eleven years later, she learns that he’s been having affairs with men. Devastated by the revelation, Ann feels betrayed and abandoned. She still loves Larry and wants to save their marriage. However, powerful emotions pull Larry away from his family, just as AIDS is beginning its relentless march through the gay community.


Svetlana was my daughter’s caregiver when she shared this story that led to her United States citizenship and membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. She gave me permission to tell it and so I wrote it in her voice, altering some events for narrative clarity. E-book available on AmazonWhen Svetlana Garetova flies with her four-year-old son from Moscow in Russia to Salt Lake City in America for a visit with Jimmy Rafael, she becomes very ill. He nurses her to back to health, but when she recovers, she realizes with horror that she has missed the deadline in Moscow to pay protection money for her businesses. Her distraught mother tells her that she would be safer in America, and when Jimmy says he will marry her, she accepts his proposal even though she barely knows him and has some misgivings. On their wedding night, she discovers who he really is, and that she and her son are almost prisoners in his house. She must find a way to escape, and people to help them.